When was the last time you were bored?

I thought of this today. I probably got bored after ages. I have blocked all social media and platforms I spend time on majorly for 12 hours today and right now, at the end of the day. I don't have to scroll something endlessly.

It made me pause and realized. What should I do? My impulse was to open twitter and scroll through tweets and see what's happening out there in the world or to play a video on youtube. see something entertaining or learning something. well, atleast watching something and pretending and feeling like i'm learning.

i still was able to access my email and whatsapp though, but after clearing through them once. opening it multiple times, made me realize i'm just doing it out of reflex. meanwhile, the focus app i built to block my most used sites is showing the number of times my reflex have tried accessing these sites.

i realized, i am bored right now. with all major platforms blocked, i find myself open google.com and stare at the blinking cursor. what should i look up. i don't know. i'm blank.

i remember this feeling. i used to feel it quite often. back, when i was a kid. in summer vacations, when i had nothing to do and tv had bored me. i'd find myself staring at the ceiling or into corners of my house. thinking to myself - "I AM SO BOREDDDD".

i didn't feel this way for years. life's been busy, sure. school, high school, then college. whole days can pass by filled with activities. but, even on the days i didn't have much to do. even on days when i didn't have much stuff to do. i never felt bored.

i could just pull out the phone from my pockets, and scroll. scroll through reels, tweets, messages, and youtube videos or music. i could always see something, read something (flashy), listen something.

i lost the feeling of being bored. i feel it right now. so penned down my thoughts. makes me realize how much more of it i need. after all, it's good to be bored.